Life Of the Phosis

Its been awhile. ~

2010-07-03T19:20:00.002+08:00

Well its been awhile.

If you have not heard?
ORD OH!
no seriously ORD OH! go to hell with you people suffering. am not going to care. =)

haha!

Let get to the topic.
Well honestly If you or everyone wanna talk about your boify who is super hot and good looking I Don't freaking care. I am not a hypocrite; who goes to one topic and to another topic going on and on and on. At time i pity you. I actually do not want to update this blog because i wanna leave it dead but I just need to burst but i dont know to who. I use to burst to you that is way before the cock up started. But i really wanna thank you for being thru with me while i was serving the nation. =)

sorry i just need a burst.
=)
last entry i guess!

2010-05-17T19:22:00.000+08:00

At times you wonder who is the Jynx in the click.
At times you also wonder are you the jynx?
At times you are the jynx and you don't know
Some people denied they are the jynx but the truth says it all.

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2010-04-25T14:43:00.000+08:00

Life is a roller coaster.

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Throwing out my Loubotins.

2010-04-24T14:39:00.002+08:00

Well. This has been a dusty blog for sometime.

I have been doing duty like non stop, till i know its time to update, even though i know i am in camp.

I have alot of issues coming and going. Well maybe its in my head but then i think its for real.

Remember the time we fall for each other? In that period of time i keep praying to God that you'll open your heart to me and God did answer my prayers. I never regret it but one thing for sure on how i handle the situation was so bad. Maybe its my fault. But do get it in mind that i am doing what you're asking me to do. Maybe I'm not over it, Okay I'm not over it. It will at least take sometime, at least a year! I am trying hard now.

Remember the time where we used to tell everything? That change ALOT! Maybe its me? but i am being as paranoid as always, I don't think its wrong for someone to just keep his/her emotions to his/her - self. But then its also not wrong for someone the just tell off his/her mind off. Its just okay. Its just Humans. At times i don't want to get paranoid but i am being paranoid. No one is calling me accept for one. She call me every Lunch. It makes me cry some how because she cares and for that reason i do all the time appreciate her. At time i want to ask her it there something going on that i do not know? can i know? am i being replace by someone from the past?

Just Paranoia!

Remember the time you keep saying on how much better if we've known a longer period before Rascal Days? You keep eating up your words. While you're out having fun you're killing me with those things you keep on posting. I Don't mind because i am going, what i mind is you are slowly killing me somehow or another by just eating up one by one. People say "You work hard, You Play HARDER" But look at the situation, did you look at the situation? I don't think so. I for once missed the old days and at times the summer nights are just not funny anymore. You can try, I'll just be immune to it. Greed it your sin my dear.

I have alot of things to say.

Lets just say its present. =)

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dd

2010-04-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

"I could dream of ways to see you
I could close my eyes to dream
I could fantasize about you
Tell the world what I believe
But whenever I'm not with you
It's so hard for me to see
I need to see a picture of you
A special picture just for me"

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cnot wait

2010-03-22T14:07:00.001+08:00

I want to like ORD now can?! ahhh!
can't wait! 12 more weeks? or more? make 3 months or less?!
ahhh!

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2010-02-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

Why do we say things we can't take back?
Why do we miss what we never had ..
Both of us fell to the ground,
The love was so lost, it couldn't be found.
what would it take to forget whose blamed,
I'm tired of crying at the sound of your name
Why don't we turn this around,
loving the enemy..
Don't you want to be lost then found?
Lost then found, lost then found ..

Maybe its too late... ? =(

2010-02-14T13:14:00.000+08:00

Currently I am doing a DollHouse Season 2 Marathon and I am LOVING it!
It sucks because they cancel Season 3. Eliza Dushku is a Great actor!
If you Don't Remember her, She is from Tru Calling.

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Fearless!

2010-02-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

OMFG--

2010-02-07T20:24:00.003+08:00

FRIENDS?

I have a lot, but which is the one who stick with you till the end?

Everyone will say he/she will. All my life I've wanted just one that can really stick out for me, i have seen some but then they went away, Far away. And went they come back its always the old time sake talking and slacking.

I am always with this bunch when i was in 2006, this bunch where we always have each other, where we always spread our love even though we know deep deep inside us that we know we have enemies in the group. It is a BIG group. I can remember every Saturday without fail we will meet up and just Slack around till the next morning. I love it till a huge problem arrive. A HUGE problem where no one wanna solve it. Maybe it was Everybody ego. Well It happen so FAST that i wouldn't wanna remember. Well Forgiven not Forgotten. =)

Well I moved on. YES! I DID! That year was like auction, to choose your own true friend. I did. But then he went away too. FAR away. I felt that sadness because I always depend on him to share all my problems and to solve it like we always do. So i moved on.

I did move on with this people where i always hang around, even though they have their own problems within their group, I am always happy to be with them. like you can say anything and people would just say in your face back. I Don't mind that at all. Maybe their problems are not solve within each other but then i will always love each one of you.

Don't get me wrong about this blog. I am not criticizing anyone in here, its a past memory where i would like to share among readers out there.

I love my Dolls.

I love my Family.

P.S.: Don't Spoil it just because of one person mistake. JUST move on. Pretend not to know the person who is the problem itself. =)

When i need you

2010-02-01T00:32:00.001+08:00

Damm Girl!

2010-01-27T20:20:00.002+08:00

Well to know its been a while i blog.
okay WAY TOO LONG .

I have been struck with a lot of mood swings at work. Well don't blame me for those stupid remarks i gave you. It wasn't Personal, Its work, if you have to do it then do it. If not, You won't deserved any of my respect as i know I've done A LOT for the ARMY! And GOD forgive me as i say, No one there Appreciate my work accept for some people. SOME GOOD PEOPLE! =)

I can always sense Rough Rivers between People. I know some is hard to apologize, its easy to just let it go, always have the motto Its a past so be it, Its over. Don't worry as i won't collect the past, it just happen and i understand. I understand your feelings, being annoyed by me, myself has to control those irritating part and i do love you my Dear friend. =)

Maybe Its you. Well it was never me. I never wanted to go out with you, You started the conversations with me and i have never follow up. OKAY! i did for awhile, for a few days. Until you realise. YES YOU! REALISE! that you are just DUMB! YES DUMB! That's the reason for me not talking to you at work. YOU make me sick. SERIOUSLY. Only GOD knows. And i love my shoes! =D

So anyone heard the story about a Pig who landed on a Sahara dessert and never found love? Well she found it and fell right to it. A HUGE BOTAK PALM TREE! WAHHH! people must say. The Mirage goes that the tree can move from one end to another. She believes in the MIRAGE So much that she is lost in the dessert. My and my Friend who is close to her can't find her so we gave up. A LONG TIME AGO! So She is AT LAST happy with her imaginary PALM tree who looks like her. =)

You are the far most person I can TRUST! You know who you are my friends~
Dolls Are one of the kind. okay I AM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING! okay I love you all. =)

AND I AM FALLING FOR YOU! AHHH! YES YOU! NOT U BUT YOU! AHHH!

okay! I am for sure am not good on telling the person i like that i like her. wth. I KNOW! OK done! I AM FALLING FOR !@$$%$^$()%^%@$

Done for now. And will update more.

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fight

2009-12-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

"there is a place in me you could call home"

Sometimes i wonder, if we had fight all the problems we had together will we still be together.?

I wonder..

Merry Christmas & Happy new year!

2009-12-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

Long hair was the it thing back then but i have to say i still do miss it
So i think i am going to get it back after this 175 days? 6 month? haha =)

I'll update more. =)

Terribly not aware

2009-12-11T13:28:00.003+08:00

Have you ever fall in love?

Fall out or Fall in?

Both?

I am somehow not going to say much about the word but i am giving up on that word itself, At times i feel so desperate to find it, at times too i feel that i hate it. So maybe i am so confuse on what to choose, i do have mix feelings every time.

Going through life like this, looking at how happy some relationships is, pissed me off sometimes. At times i always think why do they deserve the happiness and why don't i deserve one?

One where i just need to be there for that someone or vice-versa.
One that i need to talk to, to tell all my problems or vice-versa.
One with a heart to say anything the person wants to each other, listen and change the bad habit we both have.
One to just hold you hand and walk down the road together.
One to know when you are not ready for somethings.

I have gone through that but with a bad taste in the end. That ending was so sour that i have to mix and match my future on just what to do. I ate alot just to make myself happy that is how i gain back my weight. But is all over now. Nothing to be sad about it.

What i learn in life:
Its a lesson learn on every mistake you do.
Never regret your choices in life.
So, Always try to make the right choices.
Do know what you are doing.
Never get lost! Always try to find a Solution.
=)

I'll update more. =)

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2009-12-06T01:58:00.000+08:00

Don't mind my stomach as i know im getting back to the old me which i know i will be back to the previous me! huh?!

Well today is my old pal but not so old pal 24th birthday! haha! and i do miss disturbing him! haha! =P

I do not know how to start blogging these days! that is why I am not blogging these few days, weeks, months! haha. its just that I am too busy with work! caught up in camp and starting AMBULANCE duty really soon.

I've got the last 6 months of the Disco stick! I am gonna use it SAFELY!

And i'll Update SOON =)

Did it again

2009-11-15T14:41:00.002+08:00

=)

Well i usually say celebrating your birthday is a waste of time but celebrating with friends and family makes your part of the memory. So i am kinda sad celebrating in thailand with both broken specs and shortage of money! haha! my last 4obucks goes to the internet because of my special birthday!

I miss my Dolls!
I miss my Family!
I miss all!

SIAPER NK KETAWA!

xoxo

2009-10-25T12:30:00.000+08:00

Supeerr deee duuppeeerrr cute right!?

" Don't Trust that whore! NEVER TRUST THAT WHORE! Dont Trust that whore! DON'T Trust me"
HUH?!

You people should know who i am refering too. =)

=)

2009-10-24T11:55:00.000+08:00

RANDOM!

i missed her suddenly

I think im gonna be hiatus on blogger till i am ready to blog!

=)

Soon......

2009-09-27T11:53:00.000+08:00

I leave you today with a new picture of Sugababes, latest line-up including new member Jade Ewen and new article about Mutya Buena's interview. Mutya was from the orginal line-up that Keisha was last one to represent before she was booted out.
The second line-up added Heidi to the group instead of Siobhan who left the group and the final change was Mutya leaving back in 2005 with Amelle replacing her.

We wonder what'll happen to Jade's own solo single "My Man" that is out very soon and the song is already getting airplay!Mutya Buena has said she would love to reform the original Sugababes line-up with Keisha Buchanan and Siobhan Donaghy. The singer talked to GMTV's Lorraine Kelly about Keisha's replacement in the group by Jade Ewan, saying she thought the new line-up - now consisting entirely of substitutes - are not really the Sugababes anymore

."Personally, I just don't think the Sugababes is the Sugababes anymore," she said. She went on: "I mean, it would be different if Keisha had stayed in it and someone else had gone - then it would be the Sugababes. But wow, I suppose now there's no original Sugababes we should just all reform again." Mutya, who has forged a solo career since leaving the band, said she was disappointed at Keisha's claims she was forced from the band.She said: "I'm actually quite disappointed.

Obviously the brand name of Sugababes will always carry on. But to say like there's no original in the Sugababes, it just kind of puts it down a bit." Speaking about reforming with Siobhan and Keisha, Mutya said: "Well you know, we're all grown up. I haven't been with the Sugababes for so long, and you know, I've had my years of growing up and learning about what I want in life and getting to look after my daughter. So hooking up with the rest of the girls - I think that could be an amazing idea, definitely."

So will we see Sugababes 4.0 and reformed orginal babes on charts someday?

I likeeee.... =)

2009-09-26T12:05:00.000+08:00

I am now the new "Chief" in my camp, and RESPONSIBILITY is so high! But i think i can cope. But a note to myself that i will not have the same attitude as the old "Chief".

Few days back i have not gone home, just slacking around will my dolls going up/down to places i never thought exist in my eyes. But those are just RANDOM place i went. Where you asked? TAMPINES LAH! haha!

You know that kind of feeling when you kinda fall for that person but the person have no idea but you are really falling from the sky and really expecting him/her to just fall with you or catch you up? Well I am experiencing it now. No names will be written down. But like most of my friends says, its only "Puppy Love" you have to STAND UP and GET OVER IT! Well I am doing it now. So i "Kinda" Don't care about it.

For now i guess, Until Raya outing with you! =\ HurHur!

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2009-09-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

WAIT!
Now or later?!
Or just drink the whole bottle up?
WAIT!
I think i wait for the others =)

No point being angry right?
it already happen!

So i'll wait. =)

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Don't Pronounce

2009-09-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

You know that time is, Just the word call me

Whistle and you try to flirt with me

Don't take it personnaly, Cuz we were never in love
it doesn't really matter who you say you are

Singing out the window of your car

Find another girl across the bar

Cuz L.O.V.E is not what this was

Hari RAYA!

2009-09-20T12:14:00.001+08:00

Well i wanna wish!
Thru this DUSTY BLOG!
A Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri
Salam Zahir Batin! MAAFKAN SEMUA LA!

Will update more soon!

P.S. Thanks For Confessing! =)

PERFECTION.

2009-09-15T09:33:00.004+08:00

Thanks to Fadlee I'm now blogging RANDOMLY. =)

Let get down on today's Topic.

PERFECTION.

Is there really a thing called perfection.?

Its kinda a sad thing to hear from one of your friends that they expect PERFECTION in a person. Well the thing is nothing is perfect in this world, even how sure you are, you can't never get perfection. My guess, PERFECTION is just a fantasy.

What do you really want in a girl/guy. Is PERFECTION the only thing? What if she/he can't comfort you when you are hanging with alot of problems? or when you just need to break-down with the person you want, can he/she comfort you?!

If he/she can, maybe you are lucky to get a PERFECT pair. =)

Well lets just say I hate you for the wrong reasons, like one, You remind me of my Ex and its not a good thing. =\

And until today i find GILLERA a HOT BIKE! =D

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P.S. I miss my Dolls!

2009-08-20T15:46:00.003+08:00

Its been awhile since i blog.

Really can't find the right time to write. Well everytime i reach home. I need to get ready to pack my things up for booking in for the night.

Well most of my friends knows that my saturday is burn up because of both National Day and AHM. Well I don't wanna complain, i just take it and just leave, in the end i am the one expriencecing things like this. Actually no point complaining.

This week Saturday is eaten up by duty. Well i'm not sure myself who does the duty nominal roll. I am scared of not coming for the "buka puaser" at lala place, because i know it would be a blast, it always is.

Alot of stuff is in my mind now. Alot of my new friends are going O-R-D and i do have another 10 more months to go, to suffer, to drive all the way till i finish my National Slavery! =\. Another thing is on my mind is my family, parent to be exact! well Dad has been blaming mom for making us: Me, my Brothers and sister hating him.

Well it was never her fault, it is his fault for letting this kind of stuff happen. he should just let life goes on. Its pissess me off when this kind of thing happens.

Well my mum always says things happen for a reason. Esp Ramadan month is comminf. He say he will change if he is with that "Women". The whole family knows how is our dad. one after another problem. He will NEVER change.

I am pissed off because of the what he did to mom, making her lertagic, thinking on what to do. She thinks too much till there is no food at home. She is too tired to cooked.

Well i think there is a "hikmah" after this kind of stuff happens.
Either good or bad, we as one family must accept it.

We love you mum! =)

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2009-07-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

And i do missed Dancing
but timing is SO difficult now
planning is so hard
things"there"tends to be very last minute at time

I MISSED DANCING!

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2009-07-07T21:38:00.002+08:00

Well as the same goes as last week.
Home sick.
REALLY home sick.

Should i just be a mannequin and pretend not to know what's happening at home or should i just stay in camp till i finish National Slavery? Well i don't think its a good idea because i know it will make things worst at home.

Well at times, i just feel SO neglected by my family, at times i feel i that i am not wanted. Or izzit my feelings are playing me because i am a step into adult-hood.

I am not naive.
But always try to be happy and make people happy.
=)

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2009-07-06T20:17:00.002+08:00

Updating with hot news.
about doll Nikki

Singer-songwriter Keri Hilson has accused music industry bosses of forcing Nicole Scherzinger to abandon her solo career and return to the Pussycat Dolls.

The band took a short hiatus following the success of their 2005 album PCD and Scherzinger began work on her own record, titled Her Name Is Nicole. But the album was never released, and several of the tracks written for the project ended up being recorded for the latest Pussycat Dolls album, "Doll Domination". Scherzinger subsequently claimed it was her own decision to quit the project and focus on the band, but Hilson - who wrote a track for the solo album - insists industry bosses forced the singer back to the girl group.

She says, "I wrote Alienated, one of the songs on my album, for Nicole's solo project. It was a good album but she decided to go back to the Dolls instead of releasing it, well she was kinda forced to I think. It was a good situation for me as I fell in love with that song, so I got to keep it."

Rumours the Pussycat Dolls are heading for a full time split erupted earlier this year (09) after their last two singles were released under the name The Pussycat Dolls featuring Nicole Scherzinger. The group themselves have denied the rumours and have underlined that the group is finnishing the tour but they'll remain as a group.

They still have one album still to record according to their contract and Nicole has said she records songs for PCD and her solo record, but she has no idea yet when the solo effort will be finnished and pushed out. Latest rumours say that instead of "Doll Domination 2.0", US and Canada would get "Mini Collection" just like UK release, later on in July. But so far this has been unconfirmed by the label.

About the article itself, I think Keri Hilson could be right. I think no-one is surprised over this statement and the allegation of Nicole being pushed back to PCD. It's been quite visible throughout this era, unfortunately.

Its okay! Everyone will still love PCD!

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2009-06-30T19:23:00.002+08:00

I am home-sick now!
VERY HOME SICK!

I try my very best to make things right in my family. at times i don't want my mom to think otherwise so i do the chores at home, like i always do. Mom has been upset lately going in and out to Johor just to rest at my grandpa place.

I understand how she feel, after that terrifiying day, i keep on having RANDOM breakdowns because i have NEVER in my whole 20 years of life saw what my mom did, She totally lose it and had a emotional breakdown because of dad. Who can blame her right? she is trying so hard just to put everything into normal places and there it goes again. Its really like "RAHSIA PERKHAWINAN" its sick and i trying my best not to side dad.

To me he is like a lost soul, covering lies after lies. i do love him, YES! i love my dad! but at times i just wish he is dead. he keeps saying how sick he is that he don't understand how other people feel. HONESTLY i feel sorry for him. The family is totally in a mess right now. alot of stuff can't be handle by its own. i feel like crying everytime i think of this,after grandma left, i'm just scared of losing anyone.

I'm wondering what is my mom thinking right now. She is a strong women and i am proud of that. But while i am on confinement i am scared that she might breakdown again and i am not there for her like how i am for her that night.

I pray every night that everything turns out nicely and i hope some people think that you own happiness ruin its doesn't mean you have to ruin other people happiness.

I may think that my family is not normal but we do have some happiness, we do laugh together and mom always try her best to make breakfast and dinner as one family. But i always try my best to be there.

2009-06-17T22:04:00.001+08:00

Let me do the updates soon
I am so busy with ARMY life
You know what i mean!
i missed alot of people!

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qijinite!

2009-06-11T20:51:00.000+08:00

I just love RANDOM dinner Outings
Sorry affyq for the KFC! wakaka!
QIJI is love!
PRESTON IS LOVE
I LOVE MY NEW PHONE!

Enjoy the photos!

I wonder how to lose ...... ? hehe! MAK-ATOK LOVE YOU KEY-YOU!

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fam!

2009-06-07T16:29:00.001+08:00

Family Crisis That Only Grew BIGGER
Everything is not in place
Trying hard not to think about it

Love everyone

P.S. One More Year

fever

2009-06-04T21:43:00.001+08:00

nothing feels right when im not with you,
sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
taking them off cause i feel a fool,
trying to dress up when im missing you.
ima step out of this lingerie,
curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
in bed i lay,
with nothing but your T-shirt on.,
with nothing but your T-shirt on. ...... T-shirt - Shontelle.

A very terrible week i have so far, Had fever and migraine, post to National University Hospital (NUH) for review, Poke here and there to insert IV and take blood test get only a day MC! *WTH I KNOW* Went back to camp just now, in the morning ezlink went shit and can't be use over again, reach camp i slept the whole day. I am still very sick you know!

The secret to the fever i am having is my prayers all these while, yes! you can called me dumb but i did prayed to ALLAH to get sick, very sick i supposed. Thank god i guess.. =)

I am still VERY sick, trying so hard to fight. Its like a war you can win but you have to give up for a few hours to rest.

i heard THOSE BITCHES GOING DBL O! err! FAIQAH! haha!

Confession time next session. =)

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wh.

2009-05-31T18:55:00.001+08:00

"why didn't I see it from the start
how was I to know it would bruise my heart
so fast it had me blind-sighted I couldn't see
like a wave you took me under now
it's so hard to breath" ..... Esmee Denters - Casanova

Ill Update more next week since i have nothing this week
My Singapore Idol Audition
and MORE Lepaking sessions.

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woah.

2009-05-30T01:50:00.001+08:00

"But I’m lonely,

Negative relations,

I’ve been hurt so many times,

I don’t have the patience." ... J.Lo - What is Love

Well a weeks has passed badly, i have to sleep in a car for three days straight in the jungle some part of Singapore in both hot and cold weather, well i can't complain because it a commitment i have to force myself into eventhough Im so hating it.

Two days passed and going out with friends is the best to killed time, i have been out to tamp meeting up with Q, Fad and Afiq, the things we talk for HOURS were never boring which i, myself don't know why but to me its always a good thing because i know those days are meant to spend like no one business. *WINK*
I just wanna thank you guys.

& i have a new SHADES! Woah!
&& i missed my hair on that picture!

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D/G

2009-05-24T11:48:00.002+08:00

"I've been travelin' on this road to long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me Is dead and gone
Dead and gone" ... T.I. Ft Justin Timberlake - Dead and Gone

Through life everyone tend to learn things that may change their life, Always think POSITIVE and walk down the dark alley with CONFIDENT, you can make the things impossible, possible! Throw away your EGO and think for a minute,"Do i have to change for the better?" Changes for the good sounds nice. When friends know you are going to change for the better they will support you all the way and if you, yourself try to give up, they won't let you. So i guess you should change. Kill you EGO and REMEMBER why most of your friends leave you.

Life its like a COUNTDOWN to things you do not expect but you have to face it but its a choice between yourself whether walk alone or face it together with your love ones. Don't let yourself fall, but if you have too, regain it with honour knowing you have already fall to the ground.

Well one word in advise, Start your day with a SMILE and know everything will be alright. =)

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xoxox

2009-05-22T01:04:00.001+08:00

I missed those days going out not worrying of anything

I missed those times bitching about people i barely know

I missed those people that i used to share things with and don't care about anything else

I missed that chance i had 2 years back

I missed having conversations on the phone with the people i used to love

I missed Dancing

I missed the young, wild, free times

I missed laughing like Yesterday night

I missed Yesterday night

Friends, You guys make me laugh even though its for a period of time, it will still be cherish.

And i do love all of you, Friends.

XoXo

P.S. One More Year!

2009-05-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

Back from A MAJOR thingy in the ARMY. WOAH! tired! 4days 3nights!

Well those days when the lonely nights in the jungle make me realised how much i missed family. I was so GuGuGaGa over a stupid relationship that i forgotten about my MOM! yes! MY MOM! well she found out i drank that on the picture, well she is a mom you know. The thoughts i have when i was in the jungle was meditating and think back about those days you spoilt. AND YES! i did it. Lets just say, "You Never Were A Friend Of Mine".

Esmée Album is a pack! GOOD SONGS! i have the album. MSN me if you want.

I'll update more to come.

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short note

2009-05-20T22:11:00.003+08:00

In Short Notice I am in camp on somethings and busy till the weekend.
I will update more.
Please my friends don't fight.
I am just plain sad.
Message me if you have too.

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last to past

2009-05-16T13:15:00.001+08:00

No one has all the answers
And sometimes the best we can do is to just apologize
And let the past be the past.

TaggTaggYar.

2009-05-15T19:26:00.000+08:00

Well. Ayiid&Shilla&Cty&ELA, Thanks for the lepaking session and talking about how people kencing.

To Ewan; Im not telling the whole world, I just share things with people. Im not like you, you are surrounded with friends. I always think i don't, Im sorry if you think i tell the whole world but i did not. Your REASON was never stupid wan, Its SUDDEN! Yes! you hurt me and honestly i got no one to turn too, I do share things with people, RANDOM people. Whom i know i can trust. Ayidd is just trying to cheer me up. That is just what I need right now. I am just sad. Hardly I move on. Sadly you crush it. And all in my mind right now is everything you say when you look into my eyes are just fake words, well both of us knows you NEVER mean it. I don't think you know the pain Im going through, well I don't think you even care. I still do hope one day we do the things we use to do. Thank You so much.

Well. Yesterday lepaking session was so funny Catching up with My old BFF whom i known for almost 15 years. We gone through most ups and downs and TISSUES!! haha. But sadly you change shilla. As long as you are happy Im happy for you. SHARE KAK YA k??! haha!

Getting to know the chalet was cancel because of SWINE is irritating!

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outta

2009-05-12T20:12:00.001+08:00

Well I am not seeking attention but this is what happen when someone can not get control of himself/herself after alot of things happen and that someone thinks that no one cares. If you can't control it. Just let it go. NEVER force yourself or else stupidity will control you over and over again. I guess i have no choice but i need to move on. FYI that is my hand.

Thank you friends for the wake-up called.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uA6WC_Dff4k <-- For video of the song.

This song is for you.

Outta here - Esmee Denters

Get me outta here
‘Cuz my eyes are burning From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don’t really care
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

Right now
It’s so amazing how you have so many faces
And you are not that person I thought that I had fell so deep in love with
You changed up your makeup your DNA
I can’t recognize you’re a stranger to me
I feel so betrayed what a waste of my heart

Get me outta here ‘Cuz my eyes are burning From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don’t really care
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

Right now
My body’s trembling it’s so damn hard To pick this feeling,
your heart is so cold and now I’m freezing
Wish you could feel the pain baby I will embrace it
Yeah
You changed up your makeup your DNA
I can’t recognize, you’re a stranger to me
I feel so betrayed, what a waste of my heart

Get me outta here ‘Cuz my eyes are burning From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don’t really care
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

I thought that we were forever
I guess I misunderstood
My fault for thinking you loved me
Or in thinking you ever could
Get me out of here right now
Get me out of here right now

Get me outta here ‘Cuz my eyes are burning From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don’t really care
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

Get me outta here ‘Cuz my eyes are burning From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don’t really care (you don’t really care)
And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

1,2,3,4
Right now, right now, right now
Some get me outta this place
Right now, right now, right now
Some get me outta this place
Get me outta here

Im so out.

TaggTaggYar!

2009-05-11T18:42:00.001+08:00

Fuck depression!
Lets party this friday!

PARTY!

TaggTaggYar!

a week~

2009-05-10T16:02:00.000+08:00

Negatively..Thinking..

A week after the break up, i thought i can handle it but i was so wrong, very wrong.
My Emotions are eating me up slowly day by day and my eating is getting irregular.
i keep on smoking, until i was told that i smoke five sticks for ten minutes, i, myself was shocked.
Reason i gave to my camp mate was too much Mosquito. What a lie.
I cry Randomly both in camp and outside.
Very Random.
I becoming to hate the food there.

Can i just bring yesterday back around.?
Why must you hurt me like this?
Why me?
Why am i feeling like this?
Have you really move on?
Do you think of me Randomly like how i think of you? Now?
I dreamt of you, is it a good thing?
Can i hate myself?
Am i very Narrow? Naive? Stupid?
Why Don't i feel a thing when i mutilate my hands?
Why the taught? why now?
What did i do?
Etc..

Alot of questions in my head.
Can i just killed myself.? Does it worth it.?
And i don't think anyone care.
No one.
Esp you...

I hate myself so much!

TaggTaggYar

haizzz...

2009-05-08T19:27:00.002+08:00

On Hiatus SOON.

Thanks for the memories.

Do you think of me now?

At least ,A Little?

I hate myself!

TaggTaggYar!

2009-05-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me
You'd be around

I'll be on Hiatus soon!
I'm sorry friends.
what he did was really bad
and i still cant accept the fact that what i am now
i know i will be alright!

TaggTaggYar!

narrow?!

2009-05-04T19:53:00.002+08:00

Narrow?!

I did not accused you, its a guess. well its convince its not then~. Sorry.

I am still down from what I just been through yesterday, None of my friends call and ask me how am i going through. I taught one did, None did. I called one of my "SO CALLED" girlfriend, She just kept quiet and asked me back when is my turn. Thanks Anyway, Just do not call me if you have your boyfriend problems

To me Change need time, Time need faith and Faith needs hope!

I always always taught that we could change each other but you left me knowing i have to change all by myself. I really have no one to turn too, Only myself

I have nothing to cheer me up, i keep on not eating in camp and home and i SMOKE ALOT!

I have intention on drinking and if i do, it will be a heavy one.

I am all by myself now...

TaggTaggYar~

A month has passed!

2009-05-03T20:17:00.004+08:00

Hey!

A month has passed

and I am officially single as from today onwards!

I understand you very well I just don't understand why in the first place we are together in a relationship, yes its a good thing you are going to the right path I can't stop you in anyway I am just so sad right now because you have made me this way.

Breaking-up is always easy but the "Get over it" part is always the hardest, i do not know where to start? How do i really get over someone whom you trust and love. I am lost right know i can't concentrate on driving because all i think about is you.

At times i think, why did i say yes in the first place?! why?! i think because i was single for years and was very lonely, well i am naïve that time, i did say YES and go on because i have a feeling we will go for long. You were serious that time. But my STRONG feeling says that you will go back to him(with da bike).

I guess not.

What i learn from this relationship is that NEVER rush things, ALWAYS take your time! AND if you have a bad feeling just REMAIN as FRIENDS!

I am going to missed all our long conversations, long talks on the beach, long bus rides, long messages. I missing you already. badly!

I need friends! i need my pal! i need to move on. Or else i will be that old AYIZ back i do not want to be that AYIZ, IT SUCKS!

Thanks Alot wan~!
& i missed you~!

TaggTaggYar!

updates

2009-05-02T08:44:00.002+08:00

And i will update soon enough,
tomorrow is a big day for me
and i will need to move on soon enough.

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b/a

2009-04-30T18:44:00.000+08:00

Before After

They say dat before and after photos always shows good result, so I'm doing it!
I'll update soon enough.
After Jac birthday party i guess! hee

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head-egg!

2009-04-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

Mondays!
My day was spend for almost 12 hours under the sun in the result MIGRAINE!
like really huge one!
i keep on vomiting my lunch till i have nothing much left in my tummy.
Desperate Housewives new episode is out and watching first feels great! Well, Edie died!
Like always, I'm looking forward for the weekend!
i guess i have no date on the "it party"
Maybe i should get a girl. he he

Dear, i don't know why, i just feel upset. i just have to talk to you.
And i missed you~

TaggTaggYaR!

2009-04-26T12:36:00.000+08:00

Lets Blog~
i have nothing much to blog, I hate doing details because i know no detail on the details.
i just hate booking in, like really hate it! to me its not even a thing for me!
well i am booking in tonite! in uniform okay!
miting him later, and i really missed you ok!
i really got nothing to write,
i am waiting for you msg.

TaggTaggYar!

2009-04-21T17:37:00.000+08:00

I am Going for an exercise tomorrow and will not be updating till Saturday!
People may asked, hows your node?!
All i can say its FUN! i doing my FIRST DETAIL tomorrow and its an exercise! ha ha!
From tomorrow onwards i get to know hows REAL life there!
I just can't wait! I've got one more year and 2 months!
ORD-OH! (Long Way To Go)
& i missed you~!

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DoYouKnow~?

2009-04-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

Mondays!
Mondays!

How irritating the first day of work can be? Can it really spoilt your whole week?! My guessing is yes! I have been through it and it really sucks!

But i learn that if your Monday(s) start BADLY just continue the day with a SMILE, a BIG one if you have too. I know how everyone is lazy to go to their workplace, school, etc. Just endure it! Because what i learn through life is that by the end of the day you will at least learn something new and something permanent!

Bear with it! life's a BITCH!

I am writing this to say how much you are missed,
I can be irritating at times.
I do not want to be those paranoid one.
I am slowly giving in.
I am taking your challenge!
I will make you kill yourself! *Evil Laugh*

TaggTaggYaR!

justhow?

2009-04-19T11:42:00.000+08:00

i met jojo yesterday, he is going on to National Service on 10th of July, Good for him i guess!
We catch up till 3am till i was so tired! i went home.
Jojo, sorry but just have fun In national service 2years of life wasted!
its a comfirm you get rifle men! hahahah!

And i missed you!

TaggTaggYar!

imy!

2009-04-18T02:50:00.001+08:00

And I missed you...

TaggTaggYar!

dbl 0.. err

2009-04-17T15:24:00.001+08:00

Honestly i dont like Dbl o!
Not nice!
FAIQAH! i collage everything!
You want the pics?
MSN ME! haha

And i love you....

TaggTaggYar!

This is why.

2009-04-15T19:53:00.001+08:00

Im so clueless in camp, They keep on talking about things which make me lost at times.
My head hurts alot! Migrane! & i get sleepy at times!
Waking up in the early morning is a daily routine! Im getting used to it!
Im just waiting for the weekend for a feeling of Civilian life!
GOSH! i missed that life!
Because it works betta when you are attach!
Well i am!

If you are reading this, its not that i don't understand, i really do!
and the most of it! I really missed you! Popeyes this weekend dear?! i know its your favourite!
and i love you.

Well to end this blog! I want to appologise to my friends! The one who says that he will kill me if i borrowed money to this person! GUYS! i did borrowed him money! NOW I REGRET! He is not returning my calls and msges but returning another of my friend calls and msges!
Im sorry friends!
im so cashless! i do not know why in the first place i wanted to borrowed him the money!

My handphone bill came and i was shocked!
SHOCKED!

TaggTaggYaR~!

IMY aloy!

2009-04-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

Well i have to say that YOU are one naughty ...!
haha!
Sorry dear, i get posting already. I get my posting! NEE SOON CAMP! the people there look fine or maybe its my first day?! its a stay in camp but they let us out so im confused?! haha!!

Lets see..

JACKETS! haha! nice rite?! wan picked! haha!
IMY already notty! hehe

TaggTaggYar!

2009-04-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

I don't think you know,

but i am really missing you right now.

At times i just don't understand,

but still i will just whisper to you on the phone

i love you.

TaggTaggYar

care free..

2009-04-11T22:07:00.002+08:00

SO this blog is kind DUSTY.
i just put a short one before i leave
i just wanna say thank you to my TALENTED DEAR
for spending those two days with me.

Why talented? well lets just say alot of those music instrument he can play.
and I'm SO shocked.
So talented yet so cute!

and finally, i missed you baby-ew@n..

TaggTaggYar!

tues nights

2009-04-07T22:27:00.002+08:00

Tuesdays
Tuesdays!

this week is a really slow week for me to handle day by day in CAMP.
So fustrating as i did not get anyday ...
Whatever it is, i just want to finish ARMY life fast!
Very very depressing.

Went to meet Afiq and Fad, while waiting for FAIQAH J! she was lost near ITE tamp i guess. waiting for her while muching on fries, We BIT*H on without her. LOL

And the funny thing is afiq knows this person who i know who i think he is ERR, Whatever kind of person. AFIQ IF YOU ARE READING THIS I WANT YOUR PICTURE WITH ZEE! LOL

To Wan, 3 nights i have been waiting, YOU CALLED! even thou its a few minutes, its nice to hear your voice. i am not expecting anything but just meeting you at the end of the week. i am always here and my phone is always 24/7 on.

TaggTaggYar~

P.S. There is only so many songs that i can sing to pass the time.

2nights

2009-04-06T19:52:00.002+08:00

Its been 2 long hard nights without you.

my guessing you are enjoying yourself at Perak

i am torturing myself, i just got no appetite.

i missed you wan.

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missed~

2009-04-05T14:48:00.002+08:00

Well Wan is off to Perak for a week
den in june China for a month.
I'll be stcuk in camp doing nothing till i get my posting
which i wish that i won't want to stay in
haish...

TaggTaggYar

P.S. u r gone for a week and u r gonna be gone for another month!

What a friday~

2009-04-04T10:51:00.005+08:00

My yesterday was happening not as in going club happening but i spend almost the whole day with Wan, Actually was late meeting him but then I'm sorry k wan? hehe, i know you will understand.

The whole day from morning till the late nights was a crazy day for me, As usual i woke up late and no one wanna help me wake me up so mum decide to ask my brother in law to send me which i ended up reaching there TOO early, NO COMPLAINS! to be early when u woke up late is a good thing already. So i aim from morning after run, blah, blah, blah, i WANT to take half day!

After getting the half-day, the whole 3 hours was crazy, i have to get the Smack That Stuff from Nat and Wuwul. I'm lucky I'm late meeting Nat or else I'll be at bedok while some of the other papers are still in Sengkang in Wuwul's home. Err. Thanks eh nat! haha.

Well met wan and syah at syah house and melata syah about her grandmother, WAKAKA!

Well i went off to meet Andreas at Youth Park, Funny la you guys, 3 of you, Wawan, Andreas and Benjy and how wawan phone only can message and Thanx eh Andreas message me 5 in the morning! haha. I message you guys the updates!

I wanna thank Wan for the whole trip both ways from Tamp to Somerset to Bedok for talking to me or else I'll be asleep with my Mp3 on my ear. How stress i am and How hungry i am. I know I'm stubborn, Sorry k wan :)

TaggTaggYar~

P.S. I'm scared thus i know you are the one

What?!

2009-03-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

Can i get a few more off days?
i really missed Civilian life!
I missed the times i have to wake up early just to go to work
I missed the time rushing for train. ESP. Rushing for SENTOSA EXPRESS just to go to either IMBIAH or BEACH station for work!
I missed rushing for the SKY-TRAIN for TERMINAL 3!
I missed rushing for the BLUE-LINE BUS just to get to UNDERWATER WORLD on time!

I hate THIS GREEN UNIFORM!
I hate RULES which makes NO SENSE!
when can i shout ORD-OH!(one more year and another eight months)
WTH!

and i missed you!

TaggTaggYar

confused

2009-03-29T12:22:00.001+08:00

Hey.

I'm totally confused, i don't much now I'm like a little boy lost alone.

I mean like i know i don't stand much, not that good looking but i do treat people equally. Normally i wont give up, I'm no quitter! but this time i do not know what to do. I'm scared now.

You can just tell me if I'm not your type or what, NEVER leave me clueless like now! I'm so blur. Blur not as in a cock but blur like I'm so clueless. I am always regretting the day we met but i felt a glitch or a small happiness want to burst out from this heart of me. But when ever you look into my eyes i always felt something, but i always think its me not you, alot of times you been looking into my eyes, Directly.

I don't know if you feel the same way, but i have feelings for you now. I've been single, really for awhile now, OK, for a long time and always get back stab by the person who people say they are your lovers.

I told you before we met, I'm scared. How scared? Just scared i will fall, fall deep into you that i did not realised where am i and how time pass so fast. I woke up in your arms. I kept asking myself how can this happen? This mistake can be avoided. But it didn't. I go ahead and proceed.

Part of me regret, part of me don't. Im so immune! I do not know what to feel.

Like i tell you, I don't want to be the label "Touch & Go" I have been in that shoes for a long time. I am really missing you! Now i am thinking of you.

Closing now~I'll update soon.

TaggTaggYar

Why Do Have To Look In My Eyes?!

OFF!

2009-03-26T14:39:00.003+08:00

YEAH OFF!
ahaahahaha

I just compose a post just now and it went all BLANK!
AND EVERYTHING WAS NOT SAFE
SO THIS IS ONE ENTRY K!

TaggTaggYar!

p.s. it was so nice looking into your eyes.

canigethalfday

2009-03-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

Since there is nothing to do
can you atleast give all of us dat is doing nothing
HALF-DAY FOR TOMORROW!
Please!

TaggTaggYar!

2009-03-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hello

Does Every Date has to end with SEX?!
I Wonder!!
haish!
i guess im better of solo..

TaggTaggYar

UnCONDITIONAL LOVE: FAMILY

2009-03-21T11:54:00.004+08:00

you noe when sometimes you just feel down and want to talk to someone
you can always talk to your family member and you will know they will try and try to help you no matter what matter just repay them with the same gratitued and everyone will be happy!

ILY ALL OF YOU!

I think i want to try VLOG?! should i?! lol

TAGGTAGGYAR!

That day with FAIQAH J.!

2009-03-18T23:57:00.001+08:00

i tell you when u are just bored at home
please contact one of my bestie
name: FAIQAH
Alias: Q
NAME(Gelaran): FAIQAH J.
She the craziest bitch ever.
only me and her walking and talking
seems like over 20 people talking and laughing

KkKk..

TaggTaggYar!

Hortpark

2009-03-16T20:40:00.002+08:00

Did i tell you guys that HortPark was REALLY HOT!

LIKE HOT!

VERY HOT

I scrabble all the pics we took at HortPark

Enjoy

TaggTaggYar

P.S. Now im wondering is this Blogskin too HAPPY?! LOL

Thankyou

2009-03-15T21:53:00.002+08:00

Mum&Me (P-O-P)

Ouhk ...

I Choreo some dance move for a britney song
but still i think its corky
like i just cant do it
my other crew member was so supportive that they were really into it
and they give me props for it
ThanxXx Wuwul, Tini, Cheryl & Ela
Thanx fer those supports
Thanx fer the encouragement

A big Thank You to izhan(QueenBee)
Like how my day has turn bad miting him and lepaking with him will make me smile.
Like how i read an old post of him about we having the same prob and people are unappreciated by what we did.

ThanxXx Izhan.

Timing is bad! REALLY BAD!
Was really force to take up all of my OFF DAYS n CLEAR!(5 days only)
& im taking from tomorrow. SHIT!
well still got leave.
i just cant wait to end the NATIONAL SERVICE LIFE, LOL

Anyone looking?!
cuz i am....

TaggTaggYar!

Denial?!

2009-03-14T00:19:00.002+08:00

Where is those pictures from fad BBQ pit?!
hmmm.....
Well fadlee! i enjoy ur pit alot! that HUGE CAKE! OMG!
I LIKE!!!
haha
n u noe nak kene layan kan LALA! haha!!

MY life has been a mess lately, i don't think i can dance anymore and i got no time to take up classes because im too busy with driving course in national service. I lost alot of my talent that i have like dancing is one another one is my singing, damm, can't get notes right sometimes. MEN! i just can't do it anymore! maybe im thru alot of stress! haish!

i don't think i am falling for you, yes we did something that we noe is wrong i just can't continue anything with you, you are just a friend i know and i pour my loneliness to you, well it turn out bad the next day everyone is teasing me about that Mosquito. LOL

Everytime it comes to this, the lyrics " he kissed my lips, i taste your mouth, he pulled me in and i was disgusted with myself"remains in my head.

haish!

(THIS PICTURE IS TAKEN FOR FUN)

"Cause in your eyes, i would like to stay"

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smack 2009

2009-03-11T13:59:00.004+08:00

Are you ready?

Anchorvale CC MAEC (MYG)
presents..:

Contact me for application forms.

Moderations

2009-03-06T17:39:00.002+08:00

Well i know how dusty this blog is
im just tired this days by doing Xremely nothing in camp
i wonder what normal life is
this is not for me
i just hate it
haish..

well FAIQAH!
tell you wat, i update more after our miting on sat?
how?

hehe

click on this video
and tell yourself
that one person you love had left you
izzit worth it by pretending to love others?
Well everyone knows that deep inside
There is ONLY one person in their heart
no matter what happen the One person will
always be there in ur heart
FOREVER

Well im telling in out in my blog that i really lost faith in love.
I cant find my soulmate.
i just need to feel love again.
haish.

hello!

2009-02-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

Hello People!

Sorry for not blogging for a few months now.
busy la!
NATIONAL SERVICE!

and!
And!

THANX EH! KEY-U(KUNCI-KAU)
i will update eh!
guess who got internet back eh!?
dun play!

i'll update more to come!
MAN-TRUCK = BORING!

TaggTaggYar!

life~

2008-11-08T19:23:00.002+08:00

hello.

Sorry for not blogging for a long time.

lets update~

What a life i living men! full of unreasonalbe people and alot of unappreciated humans, firstly i would like to thank all the people who have been nasty towards and behind me, you know who you are and may you lived in happiness.

Life is unexpected like how i always get "busted" by people with self ego and think that he/she is a great person and knows every and anything i write on my blog.

i don't get this people because at the last end of life, everyone will die and will not live happily ever AFTER.

SO think! stop your ego nonsence and stop making "MUKE KESIAN"

because you people are the same as other humans on earth.

Taggtagg Yar!

Energy!

2008-10-06T20:47:00.001+08:00

Fine!

Since You Move On!

I WILL!

I dont need a SKINNY GAL LIKE YOU!

LMF!

Updates~

2008-09-20T20:11:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Sorry for not updating in a long time, Alot has happen.

If you had not heard, P-O-P-Oh, i'm done with my BMTC, NO MORE TEKONG for me! but to think of it, its a nice place, its sad to leave new friends, but this is life, all i could think in my mind was nelly furtado song "All good things come to an end"

I am posted to driver at Semb Camp which i am going to this MONDAY! feeling rather scared then nervous but i think i am looking forward.

I can still remember our last dinner and i hope you do, i cant really put myself well and i really hate myself for falling for you, its been a year and half, i cant get over some bullshit of you! i just hate myself, maybe i am better off alone.

i really hope that my brother pay the net bill.

And im stuck with PCD - i hate this part.

update soon!

TaggTaggYar!

2008-09-13T20:18:00.001+08:00

helloo...

guess wat?!

Bro did not pay the INTERNET bill AGAIN!

so!

THANK YOU WUWUL!

n

IZHAN I GOT NO PURPLE TOP!

hehe

Ill Update soon!

Walk alone!

2008-08-24T13:44:00.002+08:00

Now i can feel you changing me
And i can't afford to slip much further
From the person i was meant to be
I'm not afraid to walk alone
Not giving up
I'm moving on
Before it gets too deep

Plans for "Buka Puasa" Anyone?

TaggTaggYar?!

IMY very the much!

2008-08-17T13:55:00.002+08:00

I missed this bunch of people!
Even thou i only know some of them
they crack me sometimes!

and..

ill updated more next week!
3 More weeks to P.O.P.!

TaggTaggYaR!

its been awhile!

2008-08-03T13:32:00.003+08:00

hey!

its been a while yar! since i blog! haha!

NS life is getting not good! maybe im not strong enough to handle those things. My PC suck! because he failed me in my Field Camp where i have to sleep in mud fer a week *haish*!

I dont wanna filled my blog on my NS life! it sucks!

So lets Move On! hehe

Yesterday was the best! i had fun! NDP Performance in Anchorvale CC! Prime minister was there.
OK!

i'll let the pictures do the Talking! hehe!
ENJOY!

YEAH!

And lastly!

We all had fun!
And i really love all of you! my bros and sis!
MYG is love!

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2008-07-12T14:45:00.002+08:00

heyyy!

Lets Blog!

Any good news people?! haha! ok! I give you a REALLY good News!! PCD aka The PussyCatDolls! IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!! For SINGFEST 2008! FUCK! and its on 2nd/3rd of AUGUST! if The dolls is performing on the second i will BUY! but the bad news for me is that THEY ARE PERFORMING ON THE 3Rd! FU*K!

Im Booking in on that day.! WtF!

Damm! i got NO MOOD!
Yes! Its Because of this thingy!
Men! A life time opportunity down the drain!
AGAIN!
wtf la!

Dolls r loved! XoXoXo

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Missess

2008-07-06T11:25:00.002+08:00

hola.

A month has passed, NS life is not that great to me, someone stole my Admin shirt n P.T. shirt with my hangers! WTF! Suckey la! Helmet to small make me having migraine every time i wear it. haish.

I have nothing to blog now.
I really got no mood to do things.
Just knowing booking in to camp tonight.
i hate it men!
Getting shout everytime when you know the mistake is on your friends.

I just HATE it!

ALLAH help me. AMIN

I love Eveyone i noe now!

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2008-06-21T11:00:00.002+08:00

hola.

BACK from tekong yeah!
Alot of people say after 2 weeks, weekly training will be fast.

But seriously, I MISSED MY LIFE. damn.

Tekong is great, met new friends, met back with old friends and training is always the fun part i don't wanna miss! but every night i will think, and it goes with the cheer i learn, "Why must we SERVE?" There is alot of answer to it, but none of them convince me. i wonder, what will i do now if i'm not serving, life must be boring.

Im looking forward now, don't wanna look back.
And some sergeants are always on my nerve, every morning there will always be "Vulgar" but who cares, IS THE ARMY!

i got another 13 weeks ahead.
&&. i will update weekly now. haha!

WHEN I GROW UP - PUSSYCAT DOLLS

I LOVE THEM!

i have the MP3, want it? add me in msn and i will send it to you! haha!

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dedicated!

2008-06-04T15:25:00.001+08:00

I Will Be - Leona Lewis

Dedicated to that special someone.
i missed you alot.
and i will be. =(

Im SO scared for this friday which i don't know why.
ALLAH help me.
Amin.

Back from those days.

2008-06-01T15:53:00.003+08:00

Hola!

Back from Redang la sey!

In the island, Orang-putih or Mat-Sallehs are funny. Some of them CAN really speak fluently in malay and mostly they went nude on the beach! Funny but quite awkward! haha! Mostly the journey is tiring! Dont ask me what i've been doing in Malaysia! EAT EAT EAT EAT! Esp. in Redang! Morning Buffet, Afternoon Buffet and Dinner Buffet! its a full day a whole day! But who am i to complain where there is alot of food infront of you asking you to eat them! haha!

Only the Resort is clean, other then that the island is full of lamb-chop-droppings. I only though that Malaysia have only goats but in Redang, they breed Lambs/Sheeps and believe it or not they are natives there in redang! the natives there speak a funny kind of malay which myself dont understand! They will be like "Oik,Tlompang Tlompang". Everybody will be wondering, Whats dat? its actually "Excuse me" or in malay "Tompang Lalu".

Ok! Cut Crap! Im going tekong in another 5 days time, and i dont know how should i spend my time.
Ok then!
FRIENDS MSG ME!
i wanna treat people! hehe!

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UPDATING SOON!! 8

2008-05-27T12:12:00.002+08:00

Hello.
No used crying over spilled coke.
go buy a new one.
if only i can buy myself a lover.
This is WHY bestfriends ARE Forever!
MEN! I HATE U FOR LYING!
BFF! MY ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Thank You Izhan!

Updating Soon!
After Pulau Redang!
cya!

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I M Y Too!

2008-05-25T14:12:00.002+08:00

Hello.

While blog hopping yesterday i saw something that caught me remembering those old times with friends that i missed till this day. Yes, it was Yenny's blog that caught my attention towards how i missed my fellow dance pals, the old one i suppose. So what i decide to do is to find my pictures taken with yenny and Collage them together, i only could find a lot but mostly is with others, lets just make it our collage k Yenny?

I M Y too

Yesterday was a REALLY bored day i can say! Hanging out with Shilla was the best. Old jokes never fail to crap us out. but its a routine every time we meet, We bitches, BITCH first! hehe. She is still the Funny,Short,Crappy and Crazy little girl i known for atleast 13 years of my life!

I L Y Roshilla!
hehe! As a friend!

ill Update soon!
12 More days to TEKONG!

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Wondering

2008-05-24T20:36:00.002+08:00

I wonder.
You are to blame but your EGO is to high
Sometimes is good to be a LOSER like me!
ThanXxX for those critics indirectly to me

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boredom!

2008-05-23T01:22:00.003+08:00

This is Out of boredom!
While JOJO is talking on the PHONE while Blushing
i took this

THIS JOJO SITE THAT NO ONE EVER SEE!

See! hahahahah!

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boredom!

2008-05-23T01:22:00.001+08:00

late nights!

2008-05-22T13:16:00.002+08:00

hola.

We Did not make thru.
So.? whats next?
PULAU REDANG!
&&&. David Cook Won Idol.
Congrats David!

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PCD la sey!

2008-05-21T16:54:00.000+08:00

When i Grow Up jim kim live
Uploaded by yardie4lifever2

Enjoy FANS!

Im in it! (PRASAN)

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hatred!

2008-05-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

hello.

Sorry for the late updates! sheesh! its been a rough month men! Working almost everyday and practicing like almost everyday too. So today the competition was really great, i know i did had fun. but i have no confidence that we can make thru the TOP10. Sorry Izhan.

Lately Practicing has been fun, looking at my OLD friend Halik reminds me of old times, his mum treat Macdonald's after school. But, the funny thing is we have not been having a conversation for awhile so i still think its weird hanging out with him, i don't know how to make the first move to talk to him, maybe its meant to be. But old times is always kept as good memories, I still remember Haikel, me and Halik. Funny times. Playing soccer recess time and everyone make fun of haikel. LOL (KAKI BANGKU) .

While i let everything out to Wawa, I'm mad at this girl at work. YES AT WORK! her attitude sucks men! i mean like, YOU, flirting is a normal thing but have at least have a little respect for me, I'm DOING T1 and YOU R1! get that?! but y must you be MIANG and change? AT LEAST, if you wanna change have a little respect to ASK! its easy, JUST ASK! its obvious i will let you change, i don't care because i know you are my friend. but now? I don't know.

P.S. She is one of my Airport Guide Friends.

And.....

YEAHHHH! Finally, after three years without a new album, The Pussycat Dolls come back this year sexy than ever! On May 20th they will sing their new single on Jimmy Kimmel's show in ABC, but we already have it here! And it's hot as hell! The song will be a guarenteed success because it's so addictive and the chorus is simply great! The more i listen this music, the more i love it!

Want the song? add me in msn and ill send you! hehe

Ill End here.
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3 weeks to go till TEKONG!

Strange.~

2008-05-08T23:56:00.002+08:00

Helo!
its been a rough week! ive been irritating towards people and people has been irritating me! well some people has been talking, bitching, and stitching! haha!

Phone and friendster has been a bitch LATELY! friendster can load anything and i cant load any pictures in it! which i don't know why! and phone went servicing the 9th tyme! im lucky that they fixed it in 24hours! yeah i get it back today!

Its Strange while i see all my old friends from Roshilla to Cheryl how they change in looks! yes i missed them a lot! what happen to everyone from old friends to newbies, like Raihan, Nazmi, Amin, Feena, Daen. Missed them! And Amy, Mami, Maryam, Yenny, Jonathan. So missed them. i know i miss some names. i DO missed you guys.! Sometime its strange hanging out with them after sometime. UNOEWATIMEAN

i missed those days hanging out with friends and you will know they will be there after sometimes they are lost. hmm. A big Special ThankYou to IZHAN for making me REALLY better now! i don't have to be SO GUILTY now.

Im Going ns SOON! like OMG! i dunnoe how to spend my time! Working or Lepaking? *HAISH*

Whats Gonna Happen Next?!

Im Ending here.

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